Saturday, January 9, 2010

review of "Silver Waters", By Amy Bloom


Silver Waters
By
Amy Bloom


Plot: The plot of Silver Waters is the breaking down of Violets sister Rose, ending in Rose’s suicide.  The story begins with a memory of Violets of her older sister Rose when she was still “herself”.  The story is broken down in Rose’s ups and down.  Doctors that worked, and doctors that didn’t.  The story is told from Violets point of view but the story is more about Rose, or I guess Violets feelings about Rose.  The interesting thing is the story begins and ends with the same memory of her sister singing.
Emotion:
1) When her mother says she raised warrior queens.  It’s funny because that’s something my mother always says about my sister and I.  We call ourselves amazons.  The strength that mother would have to have to go out into those woods to see her dead daughter.  And to know what Violet had done for Rose would break anyone’s heart.
2) When violet sits with her sister all night in the cold and wet waiting for her to die.  Violet lover her sister so much she basically stopped her life for her several times.  She was such a strong woman to deal with the things she dealt with at such an early age.  It sounded a lot to me like when you hear of nurses staying with patients until they die.  Or comrades on the battlefield, I guess there battlefield was life.
3) In the end we don’t hear about Violet crying.  But we feel her sadness when she re tells the story about her sister singing.  I think in stead of giving this long winded crying sean Amy Bloom was able to capture the emotion of Violet in her memorys.  It was heart breaking.
 I cried when I read this story.  It hit very close to home.  “Closing time.”  Those words ring in my ears.  My cousin killed herself this last summer and I haven’t gotten over it.  I don’t think I’ve even processed it all the way.  When you kill yourself you are at your most selfish.  Rose was lost, and in a hard you never want to think about way, maybe death was a good thing.  But when I think of Rose giving up I think of my cousin.

an excerpt from a could be story


 I have never been a patient person.  I knew the wait was worth it, but right then I was just annoyed.  My cargo was getting restless and I didn’t feel like talking to him.  Ed was a nice enough kid, he stayed put and stayed quite.  He also knew enough from my mood to leave me alone.  They say when one of your senses has been cut off the others peek.  If any of his senses had peeked since he’d gone blind it was his sensitivity.  I keep my headphone on, just loud enough to distract me but quiet enough that I could hear the announcements.  I watched Ed out of the corner of my eyes him head was bobbing to my music, his longish golden brown hair swished around his pale face.  He was tall, or at lest I though he was tall for a nine year old.  We both wore sunglasses, me because the bright overhead lights were blinding against the darkness and rain outside, he wore them so no one could see his eyes were different.  Next to each other people might think we were some kind of celebritys trying to hide our identities.
 A woman sat down across from me and pulled out a burger from a Burger King bag.  The smell was inviting and a little sickening.  It mixed in with the smell of perfume and stale coffee.  The woman opened her mouth wide and took a bite.  She looked about twenty-five; she wore pink lipstick and a matching pink dress.  Her blond hair cascaded down her back she looked too perfect she made me sick.  I looked up and saw that our plane wasn’t leaving for another hour, delayed again.
 My music changed and took on a faster tone.  I had no idea who was singing, I reached down to look at my ipod and Ed grabbed my hand.  I looked at him; his face was turned to me.  It was strange knowing he couldn’t see me.  My phone range before he could say anything, saved by the ring tone.  I took my head phones off and put them on Ed; I took my cell phone out and answered it.  The inviting voice on the other side was just what I needed.

Monday, December 14, 2009

a poem i found under my bed


On My Street
A Love Letter To One Recently Dead

I live on a cobbled stone street
In a big blue house, with a light post in the front yard
A small stone wall guards and protects our yard
The oak trees that line the street are a canopy to keep us cool
The yard in the back is vast
A garden out of a fairy tail with grass to run and play

Our home is warm
Three floors with rooms and family
The halls are lined with memories
The stairs are run with rugs

My room is red
Books piled sky high
My bed my kingdom
My cat the queen

My home in this room
In this house
On this street

Where you and I once long ago did meet

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

a poem in the romantic style


Light and Waking Dreams

Twas not love but fear of losing sight of beauty that kept me
still, still as the night with all its creature gone to sleep,
waiting for first light to break across my horizon.

In light of what had passed we walked
fingers touched as pale light moved over the pasture
the sound of leaves filled the air
fill the world with sound
so this moment will be heard we met and knew.

I’ve counted a thousand kisses
hoping for a thousand more.

I have loved the principle of beauty in all things
in you, most of all sweet love.
Who’s noble heart hath brought me to my knees.

I dream of birds singing as we walk
the meadow is rich with poppies
and I am drunk on your hazel eyes.
You whisper words
soft as butterfly wings
against my tender heart
would you love a fool, dear girl?

The meadow full of your poppies
swaying around us as we stand
against temptation
first light comes to
us with a flower crown
to anoint your head
Poppy Princess come
to lure me to slumber.

Would you be real when I woke
or a dream so intoxicating it led to my undoing.
To wander the earth in desolation finding memories true
with their feelings false.
Would you remain for me?
My hand out reached dreading that contact would make it real.
Lingering for tender death by your hand.

Monday, November 16, 2009

a random poem I wrote on the bus on the way home from school

First

You remembered my face from the crowd
so you sat by me.
The shy girl who didn’t talk
You were persistent
You were fun
Broke down my wall

So I talked and didn’t stop
You listened

Then you talked and didn’t stop
I listened

You were my first
Kiss
Love
Fuck
Heartbreak

Cause when the term was up
You found a new girl to sit by.
Fuck
Heartbreak

Cause when the term was up
You found a new girl to sit by.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

a new poem


A thought that passed though my mind
on a rainy summer morning last year,
at the funeral of my twenty two year old cousin
who killed herself.

She was
He is
We are
I hope

Monday, November 9, 2009

a poem Bill is a Barn Door


Bill is a Barn Door

We painted him there
on the old barn door
me and her
the summer we turned fourteen
we stood on an old box
and kissed him
pretended he loved us
he was the perfect man.

Jimmy next door saw me one day
and touched me in a sympathetic way
so I kissed him instead
left you alone with the door
your only friend

You hadn’t crossed the state line
to be alone
the endless summers we had spent
in white gauze dresses
swimming
kissing bill

Then from the night you came
red on you dress
you smiled with satisfaction
Jimmy walked in the dark
not meeting my eyes

Then it was just me and
Bill the barn door